October 25, 1998 (still later)
Possess. Can’t get the word out of my eye. All those S’s, sister here to these charred matches. What is it, the meaning behind “to possess” and why can’t I see it? What at all can we ever really possess? Possessions? And then there’s that other idea: what does it mean when we are possessed? I think something possesses me now. Nameless- screaming a name that’s not a name at all- though I still know it well enough not to mistake it for anything other than a progeny of anger and rage. Wicked and without remorse.
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